[Anyone have any stories about coming back later after just a few jumps and being more freaked out than ever before and getting over it?]
Dan BC was just featured a month ago in Parachutist for a profile. If you don't know, he is one of the very best skydivers ever in 4 way and 8 way formation skydiving. And, he's had some personal challanges along the way.
In his profile, Dan said he was more impressed with the courage of a first jump student than anything he had done in skydiving in years.
For someone as accomplished as him, that really impressed me. He is, after all, correct. When you make your first jump, or even your first hundred jumps, it takes an amount of courage to enter an unknown sky in which everyone had told you for your whole life that it's completely unsafe.
What you are overcoming is what almost all skydivers have overcome. And, that you want to overcome that, makes you somewhat unique among people, in general.
If you want it badly enough, then you will attain it. And, perhaps, someday you will smile and say to yourself, "I may screw up this skydive, but, my-o-my, am I lucky to be a skydiver."
Few others in this world know that joy.